Neverland

I look at this life of mine,
All this and more to cry..
Nothin' is ever gonna be fine,
Just everything to feel sorry..
Not that all this is a sign,
That i'm the one who made it awry..

I feel powerless and lost,
Like a ship across the seven seas..
Riding the weather at all costs,
Not able to surmount the waves..
Have nothing in me to boast,
Just a mind of obscurities..

Not here, not there
Not near, not far
All the things that i did do..
All the things i didn't...
I don't know where I belong..
Before I wave so long...

The doors I open to darkness,
No rays of sunshine to show the way..
Can't help but feel the loneliness,
Not even a spot of hope to pray...
I'm drowning in all my carelessness..
Not a place for my soul to sway..

All the memories that I have,
Makes me feel cold and numb..
The attention that I never gave,
I was just building my own tomb..
No goals and nothing to crave..
Looking not for that elusive crumb..

Have to fight my demons on my own,
Though i'm no gladiator..

I want to bury my past..
Just to start afresh..

I want live finding my mystic place..
Or die finding my neverland..